Post by sawg138 on Oct 11, 2009 13:13:34 GMT -5
[19:02] Agilbxr: *comes back to the fire leading her horse, and looks at Elex critically* "hey..."
[19:03] Matt: *blinks from the fire and looks up* "Yes, Anna-san?"
[19:06] Agilbxr: "when was the last time you slept or ate?"
[19:11] Matt: *frowns at her and blinks before looking back to the fire* "It has been six days since I have eaten food and it has been three days since I have actually slept, Anna-san." *blinks* "I have been fasting, and I usually sleep only I must. When I feel tired, I meditate."
[19:13] Agilbxr: *nods* "that's what I thought. Do you eat normal food for sustenance?" *rummaging in her saddle bags*
[19:14] Matt: *looks at her with a raised eyebrow* "Of course I do, Anna-san."
[19:15] Agilbxr: *nods, then pulls out some bread and cheese with some jerky type meat* "you need to eat then. You will do none of us any good finding Chu'Si and Ringo if you totally break apart"
[19:15] Agilbxr: *hands him the food*
[19:17] Matt: *looks at it for a moment before handing it back* "Thank you, Anna-san. Your concern is appreciated, however I am well enough. Thank you."
[19:26] Agilbxr: "no you are not 'well enough'"
[19:26] Agilbxr: "eat."
[19:29] Matt: *frowns at the food and looks back up to her* "I am not hungry. It would be better if the others had this, Anna-san.
[19:30] Agilbxr: "everyone else has been eating. Even Aliza." *nods towards her* "I find it quite odd that a cybernight is handling a loss worse than a whore"
[19:33] Matt: "Aliza-sans aura fluctuates oddly at times and her chi is weakest at that point..." *frowns* "I do not believe she is handling it any better than I am."
[19:35] Agilbxr: "she is having issues. Her aura is funky right now because she's stoned. But she isn't driving herself into the ground either. She knows she can't find Ringo unless she can function. Do you think you are the only one who has ever suffered the loss of a loved one? You need to keep your strength as much as possible"
[19:37] Matt: *furrows his brow* "I know that is not the case, Anna-san..."
[19:38] Agilbxr: "then quit being a stubborn pain in the ass and eat"
[19:40] Agilbxr: "when we stop tonight, sleep"
[19:41] Matt: *tikes a bite out of the bread and chews it completely before swallowing and shakes then shakes his head* "I can not, Aliza-san."
[19:42] Agilbxr: "why not?"
[19:42] Agilbxr: (and I'm Anna-san to you)
[19:43] Matt: (OH crap... YEAH...)
[19:43] Matt: (Does this fruedian slip make my ass look big...?)
[19:43] Matt: *looks down* "I do not sleep well."
[19:45] Agilbxr: (it might...)
[19:46] Agilbxr: "why?"
[19:47] Matt: "It is embarrasing to say, Anna-san." *keeps looking down*
[19:48] Agilbxr: *blinks, then stares* "so, you are too embarressed to see if maybe we can help? I have a TON of magic, and might be able to help you sleep"
[19:49] Matt: *nods slightly and looks up, his cheeks are red, whatever it is, he IS embarrased* "I am well aware of your magical capacity, Anna-san. But..." *looks away slightly*
[19:50] Agilbxr: *sits down, waiting, but still holding her horse*
[19:52] Matt: *fidgets slightly* "Whenever I try to sleep, my mind is flooded of images of My Lady..." *shifts slightly and blushes more* "And it is difficult for me to gain the peace of mind that allows sleep, Anna-san. I can not help but feel anxiety during those moments."
[19:56] Agilbxr: *nods* "I had the same problem when I lost Will. I can help you with that with a couple of simple herbs in your drink tonight. It will help you sleep dreamlessly, but won't knock you out or make your reflexes any different" *looks at him for a second* "why are you embarressed about loving Chu'Si?"
[20:06] Matt: "It is a private matter of sorts. Not something that should be discussed among others. Especially others who have used my love for The Lady Chu'Si in a fashion that was... less than honorable."
[20:08] Agilbxr: "People can be assholes, and they use whatever they can, that's for sure. There isn't any reason to be embarressed however" *waits for Elex to finish eating*
[20:10] Matt: *blinks* "As I said, Anna-san. It is a private matter of sorts. I do love the lady Chu'si very deeply. However, it is not something that is meant to be discussed..."
[20:12] Agilbxr: "you do Chu'si a disservice by thinking that. Speaking as a woman, we find it quite gratifying when the men we love shout it from the roof tops!"
[20:17] Matt: *looks at you and frowns* "Making such a loud noise... it is not the way of a hunter."
[20:18] Agilbxr: "this has nothing to do with being a hunter and everything to do with being a woman. And I don't mean shout literally. "
[20:22] Matt: *frowns* "Such an unusual expression." *blinks* "I give my lady praise, and I show her when I can..." *frowns and looks to the side* "She is the only person who has ever seen me smile more than twice."
[20:24] Agilbxr: *rolls her eyes* "that's...impressive I guess. We will have to work on your expression of feeling, after we find Chu'Si and Ringo"
[20:26] Matt: "Emotions are... difficult."
[20:26] Agilbxr: *nods* "they are."
[20:28] Matt: *frowns and looks down at the food, takes a few more bites*
[20:30] Agilbxr: *pulls out a piece of jerky for herself to keep him company*
[20:33] Matt: "You think me foolish, Anna-san?"
[20:35] Agilbxr: "only because you are trying to hide how much you are hurting. I found it was easier to bear something if you had friends to share the pain with. Holding it all inside just makes it multiply. "
[20:36] Matt: "Anna-san, I am a cyber-knight. The pain I bear. I must bear alone. Cyber-knights are meant to be a symbol of hope, they are not meant to show pain..."
[20:39] Agilbxr: "that's just stupid. Cyber knights are human too. Let me put it this way, do you consider me a friend?"
[20:41] Matt: *nods slightly* "I do, Anna-san."
[20:41] Agilbxr: "ok. You know how I feel about Jeff then. What would you do if something happened ot him?"
[20:42] Matt: "frowns* "I am sorry, Anna-san. But I do not think I understand your question. What would -I- do if something happened to Jeff-san?"
[20:43] Agilbxr: "If I were hurting because something happened to Jeff. If I was shut down, and wouldn't leave my room, and wouldn't eat. What would you do?"
[20:44] Matt: *blinks* "I would attempt to give you comfort, Anna-san. Help you through the pain..."
[20:46] Agilbxr: "but yet you won't let your friends do the same for you? "
[20:50] Matt: "It is not the same. I become a burden then, many of you already think me dangerous."
[20:51] Agilbxr: *shakes her head* "it is not different. Part of being a friend is to allow us to help you too. " *chuckles* "and dangerous? Of course you are. So am I, moreso than most give me credit for"
[20:54] Matt: *frowns* "I will take that as a compliment, Anna-san."
[20:57] Agilbxr: "it is a compliment. Yes, you are dangerous. But I am your friend, and you aren't going to hurt me any more than I'm going to kill you"
[21:01] Matt: *closes his eyes and takes a deep, calming breath* "I can only assume that you have no intention of killing me then...." *frowns* "I feel like I am missing something, Anna-san. Like a part of me is no longer here."
[21:01] Agilbxr: *nods* "I understand. Eat. i'll help you sleep tonight. You'll feel a little better then. In the meantime, once you are done, go get your horse so we can find our friends"
[21:02] Matt: "Yes, Anna-san. Let us."
[19:03] Matt: *blinks from the fire and looks up* "Yes, Anna-san?"
[19:06] Agilbxr: "when was the last time you slept or ate?"
[19:11] Matt: *frowns at her and blinks before looking back to the fire* "It has been six days since I have eaten food and it has been three days since I have actually slept, Anna-san." *blinks* "I have been fasting, and I usually sleep only I must. When I feel tired, I meditate."
[19:13] Agilbxr: *nods* "that's what I thought. Do you eat normal food for sustenance?" *rummaging in her saddle bags*
[19:14] Matt: *looks at her with a raised eyebrow* "Of course I do, Anna-san."
[19:15] Agilbxr: *nods, then pulls out some bread and cheese with some jerky type meat* "you need to eat then. You will do none of us any good finding Chu'Si and Ringo if you totally break apart"
[19:15] Agilbxr: *hands him the food*
[19:17] Matt: *looks at it for a moment before handing it back* "Thank you, Anna-san. Your concern is appreciated, however I am well enough. Thank you."
[19:26] Agilbxr: "no you are not 'well enough'"
[19:26] Agilbxr: "eat."
[19:29] Matt: *frowns at the food and looks back up to her* "I am not hungry. It would be better if the others had this, Anna-san.
[19:30] Agilbxr: "everyone else has been eating. Even Aliza." *nods towards her* "I find it quite odd that a cybernight is handling a loss worse than a whore"
[19:33] Matt: "Aliza-sans aura fluctuates oddly at times and her chi is weakest at that point..." *frowns* "I do not believe she is handling it any better than I am."
[19:35] Agilbxr: "she is having issues. Her aura is funky right now because she's stoned. But she isn't driving herself into the ground either. She knows she can't find Ringo unless she can function. Do you think you are the only one who has ever suffered the loss of a loved one? You need to keep your strength as much as possible"
[19:37] Matt: *furrows his brow* "I know that is not the case, Anna-san..."
[19:38] Agilbxr: "then quit being a stubborn pain in the ass and eat"
[19:40] Agilbxr: "when we stop tonight, sleep"
[19:41] Matt: *tikes a bite out of the bread and chews it completely before swallowing and shakes then shakes his head* "I can not, Aliza-san."
[19:42] Agilbxr: "why not?"
[19:42] Agilbxr: (and I'm Anna-san to you)
[19:43] Matt: (OH crap... YEAH...)
[19:43] Matt: (Does this fruedian slip make my ass look big...?)
[19:43] Matt: *looks down* "I do not sleep well."
[19:45] Agilbxr: (it might...)
[19:46] Agilbxr: "why?"
[19:47] Matt: "It is embarrasing to say, Anna-san." *keeps looking down*
[19:48] Agilbxr: *blinks, then stares* "so, you are too embarressed to see if maybe we can help? I have a TON of magic, and might be able to help you sleep"
[19:49] Matt: *nods slightly and looks up, his cheeks are red, whatever it is, he IS embarrased* "I am well aware of your magical capacity, Anna-san. But..." *looks away slightly*
[19:50] Agilbxr: *sits down, waiting, but still holding her horse*
[19:52] Matt: *fidgets slightly* "Whenever I try to sleep, my mind is flooded of images of My Lady..." *shifts slightly and blushes more* "And it is difficult for me to gain the peace of mind that allows sleep, Anna-san. I can not help but feel anxiety during those moments."
[19:56] Agilbxr: *nods* "I had the same problem when I lost Will. I can help you with that with a couple of simple herbs in your drink tonight. It will help you sleep dreamlessly, but won't knock you out or make your reflexes any different" *looks at him for a second* "why are you embarressed about loving Chu'Si?"
[20:06] Matt: "It is a private matter of sorts. Not something that should be discussed among others. Especially others who have used my love for The Lady Chu'Si in a fashion that was... less than honorable."
[20:08] Agilbxr: "People can be assholes, and they use whatever they can, that's for sure. There isn't any reason to be embarressed however" *waits for Elex to finish eating*
[20:10] Matt: *blinks* "As I said, Anna-san. It is a private matter of sorts. I do love the lady Chu'si very deeply. However, it is not something that is meant to be discussed..."
[20:12] Agilbxr: "you do Chu'si a disservice by thinking that. Speaking as a woman, we find it quite gratifying when the men we love shout it from the roof tops!"
[20:17] Matt: *looks at you and frowns* "Making such a loud noise... it is not the way of a hunter."
[20:18] Agilbxr: "this has nothing to do with being a hunter and everything to do with being a woman. And I don't mean shout literally. "
[20:22] Matt: *frowns* "Such an unusual expression." *blinks* "I give my lady praise, and I show her when I can..." *frowns and looks to the side* "She is the only person who has ever seen me smile more than twice."
[20:24] Agilbxr: *rolls her eyes* "that's...impressive I guess. We will have to work on your expression of feeling, after we find Chu'Si and Ringo"
[20:26] Matt: "Emotions are... difficult."
[20:26] Agilbxr: *nods* "they are."
[20:28] Matt: *frowns and looks down at the food, takes a few more bites*
[20:30] Agilbxr: *pulls out a piece of jerky for herself to keep him company*
[20:33] Matt: "You think me foolish, Anna-san?"
[20:35] Agilbxr: "only because you are trying to hide how much you are hurting. I found it was easier to bear something if you had friends to share the pain with. Holding it all inside just makes it multiply. "
[20:36] Matt: "Anna-san, I am a cyber-knight. The pain I bear. I must bear alone. Cyber-knights are meant to be a symbol of hope, they are not meant to show pain..."
[20:39] Agilbxr: "that's just stupid. Cyber knights are human too. Let me put it this way, do you consider me a friend?"
[20:41] Matt: *nods slightly* "I do, Anna-san."
[20:41] Agilbxr: "ok. You know how I feel about Jeff then. What would you do if something happened ot him?"
[20:42] Matt: "frowns* "I am sorry, Anna-san. But I do not think I understand your question. What would -I- do if something happened to Jeff-san?"
[20:43] Agilbxr: "If I were hurting because something happened to Jeff. If I was shut down, and wouldn't leave my room, and wouldn't eat. What would you do?"
[20:44] Matt: *blinks* "I would attempt to give you comfort, Anna-san. Help you through the pain..."
[20:46] Agilbxr: "but yet you won't let your friends do the same for you? "
[20:50] Matt: "It is not the same. I become a burden then, many of you already think me dangerous."
[20:51] Agilbxr: *shakes her head* "it is not different. Part of being a friend is to allow us to help you too. " *chuckles* "and dangerous? Of course you are. So am I, moreso than most give me credit for"
[20:54] Matt: *frowns* "I will take that as a compliment, Anna-san."
[20:57] Agilbxr: "it is a compliment. Yes, you are dangerous. But I am your friend, and you aren't going to hurt me any more than I'm going to kill you"
[21:01] Matt: *closes his eyes and takes a deep, calming breath* "I can only assume that you have no intention of killing me then...." *frowns* "I feel like I am missing something, Anna-san. Like a part of me is no longer here."
[21:01] Agilbxr: *nods* "I understand. Eat. i'll help you sleep tonight. You'll feel a little better then. In the meantime, once you are done, go get your horse so we can find our friends"
[21:02] Matt: "Yes, Anna-san. Let us."
