Post by sawg138 on Jul 5, 2013 21:43:51 GMT -5
taus.solace: Sky will have noticed that Niasa has been quietly brooding the past day or so, ever since they had returned from their visit to the ruined city where they'd seen the zombies (and obtained their recent aquisitions).. Several times she has glanced in his direction, seemed about to approach, only to turn away as if changing her mind.. her pulse quickening.
Sky: *wanders over* "Need a friend with an ear? I have two, I could loan you the use of one..."
taus.solace: *she nods without looking at him* "I am.. have been feeling more clouded as of late, more...uncertain.."
Sky: "That is what friends are for, why don't you join me at the rail and we can look out at the see where the curious eyes of lipreaders can't overhear us."
taus.solace: *nods and accompanies him, quiet for a few moments before she speaks* "This.. You will have to be patient with me.. It is not easy to put these thoughts into words, so used I am to keep them within."
Sky: *nods* "take your time, there is no need to rush it, just be aware that what you keep inside will always come out, if not in whicpers to friends, then in screams when you can hold it in no longer. the whispers are better."
taus.solace: *nods* "I have not been able to get the one out of my mind.. the dead Atlantean in that building.. It ... bothers me, and worries me, more than I care to admit freely."
Sky: "Why?"
taus.solace: "While I do not know him by name, I recognize him by his mark. And something Aliza had said, when she described the place she saw him.." *tightens her grip on the railing* "What she said.. seems to match the old stories.."
taus.solace: (he will notice her pulse rate has just risen a few notches)
Sky: "which old stories? those of your people's reincarnation?" *shrugs* "there are dozzens of equally valid explanations."
taus.solace: "Your first guess is most accurate."
Sky: "And what if your first guess is different from my first guess. You have heard stories of afterlives, where as hells were my childhood playgrounds. I have seen dozens of realms that fit the description aliza gave."
taus.solace: *shakes her head* "The only story I have been told, is of a realm that exists for us, where we are sent upon death, to wait for the time the Fates will choose to retun us to that city--that same city that I have no desire to return to.. with a new generation" *frowns* "I have tried to do what I could to prevent that.. the funeral you were witness to.."
Sky: "So, let me ask you, what is the population of your city?"
taus.solace: "I cannot be certain. Few die before they contribute to the next generation. And we are a long-lived people..at least, those who are not permitted to leave the city, have less worry of a premature end to their lives."
Sky: "and it's a large city? millions of people?"
taus.solace: "Millions, not that many..." *hesitates* "Several thousand, but I cannot be more precise."
Sky: "and how long has it been there? just a rough estimate."
taus.solace: *shakes her head* "I do not know how to begin to guess.. hundreds of years at the least, perhaps longer."
Sky: *nods* "and is everyone there the reincarnation of someone who lived there?"
taus.solace: *she nods* "Several have claimed to have memories from their previous incarnations. I do not carry such recollections, so I do not know whether they are telling the truth or creating false stories."
Sky: "is it said that everyone lived previously, or is it accepted that some are reincarned while others are new souls?"
Sky: ((I do have a way of picking the fun and irrelevent seeming questions, don't I? However, I am actually attacking the problem and will get there once I have enough information))
taus.solace: *sighs quietly* "You ask many questions, Sky.. questions that I have not ever given answers to. Questions I have not wanted to answer."
Sky: "Well lets assume the first possibility then. If the teaching that all in the city are reincarnated souls of the dead of the city. Can you see the immediate flaw in that?"
taus.solace: "It would seem you refer to the question of, if everyone is reincarnated, who were the originators."
Sky: "thats one problem, but there is another one more important."
taus.solace: "If there is one more important, I do not know it."
Sky: "Population. we can assume that if there is a delay of months or even years between death and reincarnation that the birthrate should roughly equal the deathrate. That if there is a child then someone in the clan must have died. Did this seem to be the case while you were there? were they sudden rashes of pregnancies right after every battle?"
taus.solace: "...It is said one who dies is not always replaced within the next generation. The Fates decide the time frame, whether it is within one generation or two... There are regular cyles of births, just as there are regular cyles of departures from the city.."
Sky: "Where do those who leave go?"
taus.solace: "Whereever they are sent... they are told where they are to go, when they are meant to return.."
Sky: *frowns* "I'm not sure I understand how this fits in, are these military campaigns or trading missions or what?"
taus.solace: "Some for trading... some for training, gathering information.. It...depended on who was sent and why. Only two groups are allowed to leave the city..and only one of those are so desperately desired to return." *sighs, pausing* "It has... never been in our practice to reveal much of our society, the less any one knew of us, the better... the questions you ask now, the information you seek... it is more than I have ever revealed."
Sky: "you don't have to tell me if it makes you uncomfortable. though I think doing so will help you work through your issues."
taus.solace: *nods somberly* "I suppose... I can continue. If some great misfortune were to find me for revealing parts of my past, perhaps it surely would have happened by now.." *frowns a bit* "Although they would have me think the coming of of the Horsemen would be a result of what I have shared with others of the crew, even before I had met you."
Sky: *laughs* "yes, the potential destruction of the city to punish someone who left." *sighs and mutters something about mortals, then frowns* "Actually, i'm a bit unclear on that, the lifespan of an atlantean, are you merely long lived, or are you actually free from the perils of age ans only subject to violence?"
taus.solace: "We are simply long-lived, those of us who are not chosen as warriors or scholars will eventually come to the beyond after a couple hundred years.. though I have not known any who reached the beyond quietly."
Sky: *nods* "I think i'm beginning to see a picture. tell me if what you saw as you lived there follows a pattern like this; You were raised to believe a certain way and not question it. It is generally accepted that those exposed to the outside world are more likely to die young, and that these people were sent out on assignments where eventually bad luck would have them run into something that killed them. those in the city grew older, but eventually their luck ran out too and they were picked for missions outside which eventually claim their lives. the leaders don't ask for volumteers, they choose the person they want to go out and that person must go out. How am I doing so far?"
taus.solace: "Partially correct. It is accepted that we--that is, the Slayers, may die young, which is why we go through extensive training long before we are sent out, that we have the most probability of surviving the time when we are truly tested, sent on an extended mission away from the city. We are meant to kill as many vampires as we can, before we expected to return within a year's time.."
Sky: "And what of the others? since you said you have never known anyone to die peacefully..."
taus.solace: "The domestics.. they are mates to the slayers who return. They assist with the meal preparations, and raise the children..make certain they recieve the proper training, as directed by the Fates.. once the last child is of age, I suppose they are in line to ensure the next Slayer contributes to the next generation.. I did not pay much attention to what they did, I was kept...occupied from the time my traiing began, I had no time to think or ask on such things."
Sky: "So for all you know the people who weren't warriors could have been dying of old age or being fed to crocadiles... So basically you know almost nothing about the non-warriors... I find your ignorance as distressing as your beliefs. I have given your leaders far too little credit. Are you sure your city isn't ruled by a demon? Because a set up like this dosn't happen by accident, or in a single lifetime. this would take patience, intelligence, and a consistant guiding intelligence over at least three entire lifetimes."
taus.solace: *leans against the rail* "Our city is made of more than just domestics and Slayers-in-training... indeed, while most Slayers do die young, some do not. Those who are skilled enough to survive into their fifth decade then move to serve as trainers for the young slayers.. though there was one who did not retire so young. She was skilled, and stubborn enough that she continued into her seventh decade before she took the role as trainer.. There are also the scholars-in-training, and the others..the builders, gatekeepers, healers. The scholars eventually are sent out, in the same manner as the Slayers, but to gather information about the outer world, to find trouble spots..places that need the services of the Slayers."
Sky: "And do you know much about these other groups or are you as ignorant of them as you are of the domestics?"
taus.solace: "What more is there to tell? The scholars are sent out to gather information, learn what they can of other cultures, watch for any threats the city may face, indeed, they are even encouraged to settle and raise families beyond the city walls..as long as they continue to report back their findings. The gatekeepers, builders, and healers do not leave the city. The healers function to help ease the pain of the new markings, or to clean wounds obtained in training..though I will admit I drew more blood than any of my peers put together."
taus.solace: "I chose to ignore the domestics, because I knew what would be expected of me when I came of age, and I vowed, whatever it took, I would not have a part in that. They, like the gatekeepers and the healers, do not leave the city. That is enough for me to know."
Sky: "your people have a rich and diverse culture, that has been disected and left bleeding on the floor in pieces, each group living sepperately in cultural poverty..."
taus.solace: "I do not intend to go back and attempt to enlighten them on this. While they--the trainers, the healers, The Patriarch, perhaps a psychic or two--each in turn tried to get me to accept my role within society, they made it clear that I was the only voice of dissent. 'This is the way it has been, so it shall be.' "
Sky: "I expect that your's was not the only voice of discent, but rather it is easier to controll the rebels if they believe they are isolated and unique. If they convince you you are the only one, you will not try to find others who agree, you will not collectively see what is wrong with your society, and instead you will feel that it is something wrong with you, and try to correct yourself according to their will."
taus.solace: *she nods slightly* "When my turn came to be sent out, after my trainng was complete.. I had considered...options. I thought briefly of simply rushing to my death...a final act of insolence.. but I did not. I was....afraid--if what I had been taught turned out true.. " *stops mid-sentance, her pulse quickening*
Sky: "when death offers no release what hope is there."
taus.solace: *shakes her head* "What hope, indeed. I did have a lot of time to think, when I made the choice not to return as expected, I sought for ideas that could allow me to break free. But returning to these lands again, with these reminders of what I left..I am far from certain if all I have sought to do is enough. And the constant doubts again return with each sign of those I left: What is true, what is false, what stranger may yet know what I was?"
Sky: "I would not worry about recognition so much, you are not the woman you were then. And anyone who does recognize you and seek to take you anywhere against your will, he will learn first hand where his soul goes when he dies."
taus.solace: *tries to smile, the first hint of one in days, a sad kind of smile* "That would be some comfort.. but if one could, so could another. And the concern for the crew, more especially...those I have grown closest to, would be ever present, heightened more than it is now."
Sky: "If it becomes an issue we will deal with it."
Sky: "Until it becomes an issue, there is no point letting it tear you up inside."
taus.solace: *her hint of smile fades* "I have long fought to keep control of my thoughts... It is not something I can simply turn off, unlike the flames."
Sky: "You will need to learn that then, otherwise you will have a very long time of worrying about problems that never come."
taus.solace: "Perhaps. You have given me something to think about, at the least."
Sky: "I would hope instead that i've given you something to not think about." *Grins* "But you have done all that is reasonable, and with every passing day you are a little bit less the person you were and their memory of that person is a little bit more blurred. Soon you will be unrecognizable, and they will not remember enough to be sure."
taus.solace: "Given that I have dared to speak in such detail with you, it would be accurate to say I am not as I was." *draws in a deep breath, exhales slowly* "At times, I long to blur my own memories of the person I was."
Sky: "that will come in time too, but beleve me, it takes considerably longer."
taus.solace: *she nods, finally turning to face Sky* "You seem to speak of...something within your own experience."
Sky: "I went from being a demon lord who tormented gods for fun to being little more than a mortal, the adjustment took time and effort."
taus.solace: "Do you ever... think on what you did, the things that happened, and consider.. what you could have done different? Would you have done the same as before, or followed the same path?"
Sky: "I am the sum of my experiences, before I was changed I could not have acted other than I did. After, I learned that if I wished to continue living and do so in comfort I would need to behave a certain way. But at each place in my life there was no other reasonable path, just as there is no other reasonable path for us than to persue our foe and save this world." Smiles "In the words of a great poet; This above all, to thine own self be true."
taus.solace: *looks at him with an odd expression* "Poetry is not something I have had much exposure to.. Even music was not something used in recreation, each song had a purpose, a meaning...I know only a handful of melodies, each with their own meaning, none I have felt the need or desire to repeat.. though I have re-written two of them..." *shakes her head* "I do not know what compelled me to say that, only Lery knows of some of the things that I have written, when I dared not even put it into spoken words."
taus.solace: *clears her throat after a pause* "Yet what you say, seems to make sense. If you are able to be so different from what you were, perhaps in time, I could learn it as well.. but I find it is much more difficult, here in these lands I knew in training, than it was before we arrived.."
Sky: *Smiles* "Simply follow your true nature, and the dictates of your code and the culture you choose to dwell in, and you will be a different person than what they forced you to be."
taus.solace: *nods, turns back to him* "I hope I can recollect what you have said, at the next time my thoughts turn troubled. But for now, I can certainly say I am... not as troubled as when we began our chat. And as for the other parts of our discussion, what I shared with you.. about the city.. you will not repeat them?"
Sky: "I will take it to my grave, even under torture no word of it will pass my lips. though I can't see anyone wanting to know such information badly enough to torture me for it..."
taus.solace: "It may seem to be of no great import to you.. but the details of the city's populace.. its size, those who dwell there.. These are things we were told to never let known. But as I break the very vows that I myself took, I ask the information be held in the same fashion. If I am to fully overcome the hold the leaders of that city had on me, I have come to realize I could share some details to those I know I can trust...as long as it would not be used for ill purposes. I have no love of the way it is structured, but I cannot deny that there must be a reason for the way things were done... a reason other than making life difficult for would-be rebels, such as myself."
Sky: "Power my friend, it is all about power."
taus.solace: *nods* "That may well be." *frowns quietly in thought, growing quiet for a moment* "It is strange.. this thought that has occured."
taus.solace: "There was a time, if anyone had accused me of being ignorant, I would not have hesitated to lash out firecely, verbally, or with blade, or both. And you had used that very term and I barely batted an eye.. Perhaps it is the company, or perhaps, by having some voice of reason to listen to, or several.." *brief pause* " ....you had mentionied poetry, perhaps..you would have more examples you could share?"
Sky: Grins impishly "You don't think Lery would be jelous? Me standing in the moonlight reciting poetry for his wife..."
taus.solace: *shakes her head* "I do not think him the jealous type.. perhaps he would be happy that I have been able to unburden some of my thoughts. It is more of, he had not mentioned poetry before, and what little you said.." *shrugs slightly* "I only wished to know if you knew more,,that we may have something to discuss at another time.."
Sky: *wanders over* "Need a friend with an ear? I have two, I could loan you the use of one..."
taus.solace: *she nods without looking at him* "I am.. have been feeling more clouded as of late, more...uncertain.."
Sky: "That is what friends are for, why don't you join me at the rail and we can look out at the see where the curious eyes of lipreaders can't overhear us."
taus.solace: *nods and accompanies him, quiet for a few moments before she speaks* "This.. You will have to be patient with me.. It is not easy to put these thoughts into words, so used I am to keep them within."
Sky: *nods* "take your time, there is no need to rush it, just be aware that what you keep inside will always come out, if not in whicpers to friends, then in screams when you can hold it in no longer. the whispers are better."
taus.solace: *nods* "I have not been able to get the one out of my mind.. the dead Atlantean in that building.. It ... bothers me, and worries me, more than I care to admit freely."
Sky: "Why?"
taus.solace: "While I do not know him by name, I recognize him by his mark. And something Aliza had said, when she described the place she saw him.." *tightens her grip on the railing* "What she said.. seems to match the old stories.."
taus.solace: (he will notice her pulse rate has just risen a few notches)
Sky: "which old stories? those of your people's reincarnation?" *shrugs* "there are dozzens of equally valid explanations."
taus.solace: "Your first guess is most accurate."
Sky: "And what if your first guess is different from my first guess. You have heard stories of afterlives, where as hells were my childhood playgrounds. I have seen dozens of realms that fit the description aliza gave."
taus.solace: *shakes her head* "The only story I have been told, is of a realm that exists for us, where we are sent upon death, to wait for the time the Fates will choose to retun us to that city--that same city that I have no desire to return to.. with a new generation" *frowns* "I have tried to do what I could to prevent that.. the funeral you were witness to.."
Sky: "So, let me ask you, what is the population of your city?"
taus.solace: "I cannot be certain. Few die before they contribute to the next generation. And we are a long-lived people..at least, those who are not permitted to leave the city, have less worry of a premature end to their lives."
Sky: "and it's a large city? millions of people?"
taus.solace: "Millions, not that many..." *hesitates* "Several thousand, but I cannot be more precise."
Sky: "and how long has it been there? just a rough estimate."
taus.solace: *shakes her head* "I do not know how to begin to guess.. hundreds of years at the least, perhaps longer."
Sky: *nods* "and is everyone there the reincarnation of someone who lived there?"
taus.solace: *she nods* "Several have claimed to have memories from their previous incarnations. I do not carry such recollections, so I do not know whether they are telling the truth or creating false stories."
Sky: "is it said that everyone lived previously, or is it accepted that some are reincarned while others are new souls?"
Sky: ((I do have a way of picking the fun and irrelevent seeming questions, don't I? However, I am actually attacking the problem and will get there once I have enough information))
taus.solace: *sighs quietly* "You ask many questions, Sky.. questions that I have not ever given answers to. Questions I have not wanted to answer."
Sky: "Well lets assume the first possibility then. If the teaching that all in the city are reincarnated souls of the dead of the city. Can you see the immediate flaw in that?"
taus.solace: "It would seem you refer to the question of, if everyone is reincarnated, who were the originators."
Sky: "thats one problem, but there is another one more important."
taus.solace: "If there is one more important, I do not know it."
Sky: "Population. we can assume that if there is a delay of months or even years between death and reincarnation that the birthrate should roughly equal the deathrate. That if there is a child then someone in the clan must have died. Did this seem to be the case while you were there? were they sudden rashes of pregnancies right after every battle?"
taus.solace: "...It is said one who dies is not always replaced within the next generation. The Fates decide the time frame, whether it is within one generation or two... There are regular cyles of births, just as there are regular cyles of departures from the city.."
Sky: "Where do those who leave go?"
taus.solace: "Whereever they are sent... they are told where they are to go, when they are meant to return.."
Sky: *frowns* "I'm not sure I understand how this fits in, are these military campaigns or trading missions or what?"
taus.solace: "Some for trading... some for training, gathering information.. It...depended on who was sent and why. Only two groups are allowed to leave the city..and only one of those are so desperately desired to return." *sighs, pausing* "It has... never been in our practice to reveal much of our society, the less any one knew of us, the better... the questions you ask now, the information you seek... it is more than I have ever revealed."
Sky: "you don't have to tell me if it makes you uncomfortable. though I think doing so will help you work through your issues."
taus.solace: *nods somberly* "I suppose... I can continue. If some great misfortune were to find me for revealing parts of my past, perhaps it surely would have happened by now.." *frowns a bit* "Although they would have me think the coming of of the Horsemen would be a result of what I have shared with others of the crew, even before I had met you."
Sky: *laughs* "yes, the potential destruction of the city to punish someone who left." *sighs and mutters something about mortals, then frowns* "Actually, i'm a bit unclear on that, the lifespan of an atlantean, are you merely long lived, or are you actually free from the perils of age ans only subject to violence?"
taus.solace: "We are simply long-lived, those of us who are not chosen as warriors or scholars will eventually come to the beyond after a couple hundred years.. though I have not known any who reached the beyond quietly."
Sky: *nods* "I think i'm beginning to see a picture. tell me if what you saw as you lived there follows a pattern like this; You were raised to believe a certain way and not question it. It is generally accepted that those exposed to the outside world are more likely to die young, and that these people were sent out on assignments where eventually bad luck would have them run into something that killed them. those in the city grew older, but eventually their luck ran out too and they were picked for missions outside which eventually claim their lives. the leaders don't ask for volumteers, they choose the person they want to go out and that person must go out. How am I doing so far?"
taus.solace: "Partially correct. It is accepted that we--that is, the Slayers, may die young, which is why we go through extensive training long before we are sent out, that we have the most probability of surviving the time when we are truly tested, sent on an extended mission away from the city. We are meant to kill as many vampires as we can, before we expected to return within a year's time.."
Sky: "And what of the others? since you said you have never known anyone to die peacefully..."
taus.solace: "The domestics.. they are mates to the slayers who return. They assist with the meal preparations, and raise the children..make certain they recieve the proper training, as directed by the Fates.. once the last child is of age, I suppose they are in line to ensure the next Slayer contributes to the next generation.. I did not pay much attention to what they did, I was kept...occupied from the time my traiing began, I had no time to think or ask on such things."
Sky: "So for all you know the people who weren't warriors could have been dying of old age or being fed to crocadiles... So basically you know almost nothing about the non-warriors... I find your ignorance as distressing as your beliefs. I have given your leaders far too little credit. Are you sure your city isn't ruled by a demon? Because a set up like this dosn't happen by accident, or in a single lifetime. this would take patience, intelligence, and a consistant guiding intelligence over at least three entire lifetimes."
taus.solace: *leans against the rail* "Our city is made of more than just domestics and Slayers-in-training... indeed, while most Slayers do die young, some do not. Those who are skilled enough to survive into their fifth decade then move to serve as trainers for the young slayers.. though there was one who did not retire so young. She was skilled, and stubborn enough that she continued into her seventh decade before she took the role as trainer.. There are also the scholars-in-training, and the others..the builders, gatekeepers, healers. The scholars eventually are sent out, in the same manner as the Slayers, but to gather information about the outer world, to find trouble spots..places that need the services of the Slayers."
Sky: "And do you know much about these other groups or are you as ignorant of them as you are of the domestics?"
taus.solace: "What more is there to tell? The scholars are sent out to gather information, learn what they can of other cultures, watch for any threats the city may face, indeed, they are even encouraged to settle and raise families beyond the city walls..as long as they continue to report back their findings. The gatekeepers, builders, and healers do not leave the city. The healers function to help ease the pain of the new markings, or to clean wounds obtained in training..though I will admit I drew more blood than any of my peers put together."
taus.solace: "I chose to ignore the domestics, because I knew what would be expected of me when I came of age, and I vowed, whatever it took, I would not have a part in that. They, like the gatekeepers and the healers, do not leave the city. That is enough for me to know."
Sky: "your people have a rich and diverse culture, that has been disected and left bleeding on the floor in pieces, each group living sepperately in cultural poverty..."
taus.solace: "I do not intend to go back and attempt to enlighten them on this. While they--the trainers, the healers, The Patriarch, perhaps a psychic or two--each in turn tried to get me to accept my role within society, they made it clear that I was the only voice of dissent. 'This is the way it has been, so it shall be.' "
Sky: "I expect that your's was not the only voice of discent, but rather it is easier to controll the rebels if they believe they are isolated and unique. If they convince you you are the only one, you will not try to find others who agree, you will not collectively see what is wrong with your society, and instead you will feel that it is something wrong with you, and try to correct yourself according to their will."
taus.solace: *she nods slightly* "When my turn came to be sent out, after my trainng was complete.. I had considered...options. I thought briefly of simply rushing to my death...a final act of insolence.. but I did not. I was....afraid--if what I had been taught turned out true.. " *stops mid-sentance, her pulse quickening*
Sky: "when death offers no release what hope is there."
taus.solace: *shakes her head* "What hope, indeed. I did have a lot of time to think, when I made the choice not to return as expected, I sought for ideas that could allow me to break free. But returning to these lands again, with these reminders of what I left..I am far from certain if all I have sought to do is enough. And the constant doubts again return with each sign of those I left: What is true, what is false, what stranger may yet know what I was?"
Sky: "I would not worry about recognition so much, you are not the woman you were then. And anyone who does recognize you and seek to take you anywhere against your will, he will learn first hand where his soul goes when he dies."
taus.solace: *tries to smile, the first hint of one in days, a sad kind of smile* "That would be some comfort.. but if one could, so could another. And the concern for the crew, more especially...those I have grown closest to, would be ever present, heightened more than it is now."
Sky: "If it becomes an issue we will deal with it."
Sky: "Until it becomes an issue, there is no point letting it tear you up inside."
taus.solace: *her hint of smile fades* "I have long fought to keep control of my thoughts... It is not something I can simply turn off, unlike the flames."
Sky: "You will need to learn that then, otherwise you will have a very long time of worrying about problems that never come."
taus.solace: "Perhaps. You have given me something to think about, at the least."
Sky: "I would hope instead that i've given you something to not think about." *Grins* "But you have done all that is reasonable, and with every passing day you are a little bit less the person you were and their memory of that person is a little bit more blurred. Soon you will be unrecognizable, and they will not remember enough to be sure."
taus.solace: "Given that I have dared to speak in such detail with you, it would be accurate to say I am not as I was." *draws in a deep breath, exhales slowly* "At times, I long to blur my own memories of the person I was."
Sky: "that will come in time too, but beleve me, it takes considerably longer."
taus.solace: *she nods, finally turning to face Sky* "You seem to speak of...something within your own experience."
Sky: "I went from being a demon lord who tormented gods for fun to being little more than a mortal, the adjustment took time and effort."
taus.solace: "Do you ever... think on what you did, the things that happened, and consider.. what you could have done different? Would you have done the same as before, or followed the same path?"
Sky: "I am the sum of my experiences, before I was changed I could not have acted other than I did. After, I learned that if I wished to continue living and do so in comfort I would need to behave a certain way. But at each place in my life there was no other reasonable path, just as there is no other reasonable path for us than to persue our foe and save this world." Smiles "In the words of a great poet; This above all, to thine own self be true."
taus.solace: *looks at him with an odd expression* "Poetry is not something I have had much exposure to.. Even music was not something used in recreation, each song had a purpose, a meaning...I know only a handful of melodies, each with their own meaning, none I have felt the need or desire to repeat.. though I have re-written two of them..." *shakes her head* "I do not know what compelled me to say that, only Lery knows of some of the things that I have written, when I dared not even put it into spoken words."
taus.solace: *clears her throat after a pause* "Yet what you say, seems to make sense. If you are able to be so different from what you were, perhaps in time, I could learn it as well.. but I find it is much more difficult, here in these lands I knew in training, than it was before we arrived.."
Sky: *Smiles* "Simply follow your true nature, and the dictates of your code and the culture you choose to dwell in, and you will be a different person than what they forced you to be."
taus.solace: *nods, turns back to him* "I hope I can recollect what you have said, at the next time my thoughts turn troubled. But for now, I can certainly say I am... not as troubled as when we began our chat. And as for the other parts of our discussion, what I shared with you.. about the city.. you will not repeat them?"
Sky: "I will take it to my grave, even under torture no word of it will pass my lips. though I can't see anyone wanting to know such information badly enough to torture me for it..."
taus.solace: "It may seem to be of no great import to you.. but the details of the city's populace.. its size, those who dwell there.. These are things we were told to never let known. But as I break the very vows that I myself took, I ask the information be held in the same fashion. If I am to fully overcome the hold the leaders of that city had on me, I have come to realize I could share some details to those I know I can trust...as long as it would not be used for ill purposes. I have no love of the way it is structured, but I cannot deny that there must be a reason for the way things were done... a reason other than making life difficult for would-be rebels, such as myself."
Sky: "Power my friend, it is all about power."
taus.solace: *nods* "That may well be." *frowns quietly in thought, growing quiet for a moment* "It is strange.. this thought that has occured."
taus.solace: "There was a time, if anyone had accused me of being ignorant, I would not have hesitated to lash out firecely, verbally, or with blade, or both. And you had used that very term and I barely batted an eye.. Perhaps it is the company, or perhaps, by having some voice of reason to listen to, or several.." *brief pause* " ....you had mentionied poetry, perhaps..you would have more examples you could share?"
Sky: Grins impishly "You don't think Lery would be jelous? Me standing in the moonlight reciting poetry for his wife..."
taus.solace: *shakes her head* "I do not think him the jealous type.. perhaps he would be happy that I have been able to unburden some of my thoughts. It is more of, he had not mentioned poetry before, and what little you said.." *shrugs slightly* "I only wished to know if you knew more,,that we may have something to discuss at another time.."
